First of all, Happy Holidays to everyone! I hope that you are all having a good time, because basically I am doing about as well as I should for a break. It doesn't matter that it is exciting or interesting or even boring...it makes me feel good and that's all that I needed.
Meeting up with old friends yesterday went the way I should have expected it. I don't know what I was looking for... Sometimes I think that I've changed a whole lot but really I haven't. I think I've never shared that much in common with them and I still don't. Though it was interesting to hear how everyone is kind of discontent...no one's found a pot of gold or anything like that. In the end, it just seems that what you want is the thing you can't define, so it makes it pretty hard to find.
For example, I don't know if I am really searching for a life partner. I think I'm more worried about living by myself for the rest of my life. I mean, it's rare to have a roommate for life. I think I just need companionship and not romance. I have enough fun hearing about other people's and making up my own. I mean, I think everyone wants love; it just depends on what type.
And then jobs. I can't just sit, but I would be perfectly content to rotate between reading fiction, learning languages, playing music, playing videogames, listening to music, knitting, cooking, writing, and even studying more chemistry. However, at this point the chemistry is sort of "enforced" since it is part of my coursework so I don't exhibit a real on my own desire to seek out articles and read them myself, etc. Basically I'm not totally devoted to anything and I don't think I ever could be...
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