What Do I Want?

What do I want? I want to know what I want out of my lab rotation. I want to know if I want to dedicate myself to a career and what career that would be. I want to want things enough that I don't have doubts.

I also want to be less shy about myself and about my living situation. I need to "care" less about real things - I need to not care if other people are in the kitchen when I want to use it, how loud my neighbors may or may not be, if I'm actually being social enough or doing enough things. I need to care about being happy, healthy, safe. I need to also remember to study more Croatian!

Because of Orientation I've been very stressed out. Thus I miss knitting more than ever. I still need to set up the TV, do a few chores like get my driver's license and buy some non-vegetable foods like milk and butter and cheese, set up and clean my room. I need to write some stories or some music or draw or something creative. I need to also stop being randomly emo - hey I learned that stress can cause people to feel more depressed than usual, maybe that's what's happening...

Sports! Davis Cup is happening this weekend and I should have set up my cable TV before this weekend so that I could watch it! But whatever, I am happy that Mario won his DC match and Serbia are back in the world group (are up 3-0 in a best of 5). And seeing some photos, Janko is so pretty... So jealous... Also, UEFA Champion's League started up again and Atletico got off to a great start! Kun is amazing once again! And also I went to a volleyball game yesterday. Was fun - would have been more fun with my sister! Oh well... Two weeks it's Cal and Stanford! So looking forward to that (esp. seeing Alix and Cynthia and Foluke in person!).