Where My Parents and I Don't Agree

I just got yelled at for watching more tennis, this time on my computer. Because I had basically watched from about 11 to 5, and then 7 until now, except for a break to eat a mandatory snack. No wonder why I got so fat under when I lived at home. Anyway it's obviously not the only thing I've been yelled at about. I forgot to clean the bathtub, and only cleaned the bathroom when asked. I don't go out of my way to cook when my Dad is anal and must control the food supply. I don't go out of my way to talk to them, I don't exercise a lot, I'm on the internet.

Basically I'm not on the same wavelength as my parents. I don't care about the same things that they do. I don't have much to talk about with them. Half of what I believe is different from what they do. Maybe it's too weird for them to understand that I am different from them because they are like "we raised her, why doesn't she do what we expect her to?" But somehow I am an introvert who is very sensitive and unable to hide my feelings. I also have an inferiority complex of unknown origin still. So I think too much about what people mean and how they react to things I do, things I say, but I can't help but say the first things that come to mind. I self-evaluate but have a hard time breaking habits, while my parents scold me for bad habits that they themselves still practice.

So I believe in taking care of things I care about, and not being a busy body. I find inspiration and enjoyment from watching tennis. I would be playing it too, if I had someone to play with or was taking lessons (definitely considering taking lessons some day). Yes, I did enjoy the Democratic Convention speeches and some of them were pretty good, but I also learn from seeing how tennis players deal with nervousness during matches. I'm sorry that athletes inspire me and politicians don't.

I think my dad was mostly pissed off because he watched me watch TV. I wasn't hiding in my room watching TV, like my sister does playing the SIMs. She also had the whole summer off while I am trying to milk 2.5 months which also included 4 weeks not at home. I also spent 3 of these days finishing up my lab summary, and half of my time in Seattle taking care of housing issues. So that stuff for me was very stressful. I'm sorry that it wasn't fun and games for me. But seriously, what do they expect?

I am definitely not coherent when I am pissed off. And I still haven't told them that I am bisexual. I feel like they would either not take me seriously or try to convince me that I am not. I don't even think they understand what it is to be bisexual and might understand me being lesbian a lot better.