My Failures

First I failed at being social with my own lab. Second I failed to be very social at the graduate student social thingy. Third I failed at finding the LGBT people who were supposed to be there. Fourth I failed at cheering for UW volleyball because I am too in love with Cutura. She's just so awesome. Plus points for Carli Lloyd (???) and #14 was kind of hot...haha it was #14 on Utah's women's soccer team...it must be my new favorite number.

I also realized that this guy in my department looks kind of like the guy in my previous lab who I thought was hot. But he's kind of preppy compared to the other guy who had punk/metal/rock music stereotype fashion going on. I think these are the worst kind of "attractions" or "obsessions", whatever they are, because it's like an extension of an "old" one. It gets too messy. I think I had one of those in high school, and the guy I had the actual crush on (who had already graduated) was so much better than the "secondary" guy. But with the "first" person gone, I fixed my attentions on something similar. Yeah, if that made any sense...

I think I'm almost obsessed with my lack of friends here. I keep thinking about it, and thinking about it makes me think even more about it. Like the failure of my lab work... Too bad my French books came in while I was gone - I can't get them until Monday. So I guess I should actually study this weekend. But definitely plan to get some yarn. I am going to make a "bisexual" tote - tote with the bisexual flag colors! Hopefully I can find those colors. Otherwise I think I'm knitting a purple coat.

Talking about coats, I need to get a raincoat. The volleyball game was totally worth getting drenched on the way home, but I don't have to do that every time. Also, I need to not sit in the student section. Especially not on Sunday, when my favorite volleyball girls come to town. I probably shouldn't scream my love for Cynthia, but definitely will be wearing red! Maybe she'll notice me haha...